| | I'm writing here today. So I guess you know what it means by that.
I don't want to feel like an option to you. I don't want to be an option.
But that's how yours truly feels right now, at this very moment.
I am just a mere choice.
When I am of use, or when I am needed, that is when you'll give me much attention.
When you have plans and friends and other stuff, I'll be pushed aside to the tiniest corner.
You said you really want to spend more time with me.
And I believed you. I waited. And waited.
I think I'm a fool. A fool who's too in love with you.
I find myself being stupid and so emotional over things that happen between us.
Where's our quality time together?
Since the holidays started till now, I can count how many times we spent together with my one hand.
I don't want to be slotted into your schedule. I wish you would make time for me.
I don't consider wanting to spend time with someone I love as demanding, because it's not like I am always with you every single day. All I asked for is time, and understanding.
I have been very patient. I want to please you.
But I can't keep hurting myself along the way.
You mean alot to me. I mean alot to myself too.
Why do you come and go to your liking?
Why do you only want me when everything is happy,
But leave me when everything turns bad?
Am I that pathetic? Am I?
Till the extend where I make your life miserable?
I was so happy when you came back into my life.
But am not too sure now.
Don't play with me and my feelings. Please. Don't.
Yes, I'm fragile. Yes, I'm weak.
That does not mean you can overpower me.
Do you know, that you are selfish at times? Most of the time?
I try to accept your weaknesses and imperfection.
Why can't you try to accept mine?
I told you, that I don't want to look back after this.
That I hope I won't regret my decision.
While telling you, I cried my eyes and heart out.
It felt so painful. It hurt so much.
So pain I can still feel it now.
Cure me. Please.
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| | Posted 12/18/2008 7:42 PM - 64 Views - 4 eProps - 3 comments
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